Well, I think yesterday was one of the most awful days I’ve had since the transplant – how ironic since it was my first day to be happy and home!
I had a reasonably good night…..I did wake a few times, and seem to have a lot of vivid nightmares which isn’t much fun, but at least I was in my own bed and wasn’t being woken to have my obs taken as soon as I’d got to sleep. It was lovely to be sleeping next to my husband for the first time in 3 weeks…..just his presence was enough to keep me happy.
But then yesterday daytime arrived. I spent most of the day sleeping or being sick…..part of that was my fault as I didn’t take my anti-sickness tablet onFriday night….thought I didn’t need them anymore. But then once I’d started being sick the next day, I think that I keep throwing up the tablets I was taking. Finally by last night I had stopped, and touch wood, haven’t been sick yet today. I can’t really afford to keep being sick. I have lost quite a lot of weight in the last 3 weeks, and I can’t imagine to lose over a stone in that time, can be particularly good for you. I know it is nice in lots of ways (I had become massively overweight on the steroids) but it isn’t a way I would choose in the future.
We did go for a short walk yesterday night….I thought it might help me sleep last night. We only walked up to the local park, but it was nice to get out and get some fresh air. It didn’t make much difference with the sleep last night, and the nightmares came back, along with periods of being unable to sleep, but hey, it could have been even worse if I hadn’t walked at all. I think I might try a sleeping tablet tonight and see how that goes.
Anyway, today is a new day. Nick has just gone to pick the kids up from his parents in the Midlands. The house has seemed so quiet and empty without them. That will change massively once they’re back, and I’m pretty nervous on how it will impact on me, but I am so so looking forward to seeing them. We are really lucky that my sister from Beijing is back tonight to help this week. I don’t know what I would do without her. And then one of my other sisters is having them for a couple of days next week which is great too – I think it will all just help me to ease my way back into things.
Right going to grab a sleep before they return.