A month of new beginnings

I know I’ve been really quiet for some time now and it’s not for any reason other than that I have been mega busy!

This month has seen some quite major changes for me – moving into our new family home after two years in rented accommodation, and me making a final decision to start pushing forward with my new business. That along with Sam starting at secondary school and there is no way that anyone can accuse us of taking the easy road!

These changes have all been really exciting ones, but for those that know us, they haven’t been without an awful lot of thought, discussion and contemplation. Neither of us like to let my myeloma affect our lives massively, but when you are making big decisions, it has to come into the equation. Even now as I write this, I still keep my fingers slightly crossed that we have made the right choices with the direction that we have taken.

design.pngBuying a house that mortgages us up to the hilt was probably the most major decision. It is a fabulous house, that we can’t wait to turn into our home. But it will mean that Nick has the pressure of a large mortgage on him on top of everything else….and a 28 year one at that! That is the sort of thing that is hard enough normally, but we are just having to hope that nothing happens with my health to compromise his ability to work like he currently does. It is also a very old house that needs everything redecorating and some structural work too and in the back of our minds, the concern of whether this is good for me, or how we will do this if I relapse, is always there. BUT that said, it is SUCH an exciting opportunity that I think we would have always regretted it if we hadn’t given it a  go. I suppose in the back of my mind is that if things really got bad, we could always sell up.

At the same time as moving home, I have also started to push forward with my business concept – doing social media for small businesses who don’t have the time to do it themselves, but can’t afford the usual top rates that marketing companies often charge. I have finally realised that I don’t think a 35 hour a week role with a company works for me….I don’t know when I will be poorly and I hate letting people down! So this allows me to work for myself and pretty much schedule things to suit my family and my health. Perfect.

I’m very excited as it will allow us to do our renovations on the house quicker than we might otherwise achieve – I’ve already managed to pick up some extra clients since I made the decision and that is before I even have my own business pages set up! So now I’m working on the confidence piece. I don’t think I’d realised quite how much the myeloma plays in the back of my mind….making me doubt my ability to do anything. But luckily, I have a fab husband and wonderful family who have really encouraged me to push forward and have more faith in myself!

So, all in all, life is very exciting at the moment!


About Deb Gascoyne

I am wife of one, mother of two (& a dog!) and a person in my own right😊. I have used my diagnosis of myeloma to allow me to focus on what I CAN achieve and not what I can't. My blog is a way of me spilling out....it is for me more than you I'm afraid. But if it helps you along the way, that is an absolute bonus for me :-) Diagnosed in 2009 with smouldering myeloma, I started treatment in 2010 and had a SCT in 2011. I’ve been on maintenance since then until November 2018 but my figures went up so am now officially relapsed and have just started DVD treatment (July 2019)
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4 Responses to A month of new beginnings

  1. alexbicknell says:

    We just got a puppy. There’s always the “what if mm” thing in the back of the mind every time one makes a long-term commitment/decision. Especially since the burden of that concern ultimately falls on our partners, not us. But then again, can we live our lives avoiding decisions and choices that might be messed up by mm? Seems self defeating to me.

    As for the business bit – I too have concluded that a “full time job” is not right – I’m not saying it’s completely incompatible with mm, but it wouldn’t work out for me. The stress would cause me havoc, for starters. I’m fortunate that I’ve been self employed since long before the mm came along, and it’s a good place to be – sounds like you already have the crucial ingredient – clients – from which everything else can follow. Just keep making the clients happy…

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  2. Susan Spruce says:

    Well done Deb and nick, mm certainly makes you think of putting off things that you really want to do, ‘just incase’ the worst happens. I am absolutely in awe of you as I really want a puppy but all I keep thinking is that if anything happens ( negative I know !!) but my husband will have the responsibility as well as having a full time job, however after reading your inspiring blog, it may be back on the to do list xxxxxxx


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