So a few weeks ago I wrote a post in a time that felt so surreal. Nothing has changed, if anything it all gets weirder. Covid-19 is changing the world by the day and I honestly don’t think much will go back to the old ‘normal’.
For us as a family, once the rest of the UK went into lockdown, things have stayed largely the same as they are for others. Until today.
I have to say, that whilst I found the first two weeks really, really hard, the last two have become easier. I think I was so scared about how myeloma and coronavirus would mix, whereas now I have learnt to let that go….most of the time. Perhaps it got easier when it wasn’t just us doing the isolation piece – is that really selfish?
We are lucky that we have a spacious house and garden that has meant that our 3.5 weeks of isolation hasn’t felt cooped up. The children have home schooled well and we’re trying to help them to mix it up with dog walks, cycle rides, card games, and other things…anything to keep their mental health stronger…and ours! The same goes for us. We’re trying to make the most of our time with the kids, with each other and in the house. Lots of gardening (it has never looked so good!), decorating (lockdown hit before we could get the decorator in!), walking and cycling. Two meals a day all together, family boxsets and more facetiming than ever before. Oh, and courtesy of Nick, Sam is now sporting this wonderful haircut….he’ll never be allowed it again….and to be fair, he only did it to try and add to his fundraising total for Myeloma UK (pls sponsor if you haven’t – even a pound would be great!)
This week things are changing again though. I am currently writing this whilst I’m sat in hospital waiting for my monthly dartumumab infusion.
Mask, gloves and glasses all in place to try and reduce the risk of picking anything up while I’m in. I can’t believe when you’ve isolated for nearly a month, how scary it has felt having to come somewhere public again. Especially when I knew that staff on the team have had the virus! I’m just pleased I’m here this week and not last week, when apparently, staff weren’t wearing masks or anything. I’d even brought in masks for them, (thanks to my sister kindly donating them!), but thank god they weren’t needed. I didn’t want to look fussy asking them to wear them, even though I knew it was a fair request. Despite my fear of being out and about, there is an element of relief at seeing people. Of a gladness for human interaction, face to face. Even the car journey to the hospital felt like a blessing of some kind. It’s another reason to hope that we will all find something to be grateful for at the end of this viral pandemic.
So the downside of my hospital visit…We’ve decided that I will self-isolate at at the end of this. I don’t think I could forgive myself if I took anything home and the kids got ill. Not when I have a choice unlike so many of the amazing people out there who are still working to keep the country running. So, I will be going straight to my room when I get back – do not touch anything, do not pass go. I had big hugs with Nick and the kids as I left for hospital, and they will be the last ones for 12 days. I’m not quite sure how hard this will be. I think I’ll get lonely but imagine there’ll be lots of facetime and zoom catch ups with friends and family. I’ve got a couple of jigsaws, lots of books lined up, and we’ve moved the TV to our bedroom! I actually think it might be harder for Nick who is now not only working fulltime, but having to manage the kids over the Easter holidays, cook, clean and keep on top of everything! I’m very lucky to have such a capable and lovely husband (and yes he reads this blog 😉 )
But this period of time is affecting so many people. I have family (and friends) who are about to have a baby, others who have businesses that are up in the air at such a tough time, and others who have been separated from their families. And others who choose to put themselves out there to try to resolve this strange and terrifying virus – nurses, teachers, civil service staff plus many more. The whole world is worried – we are no exception. This blog feels slightly self-indulgent as I get further through writing it. But perhaps one day I will look back and it will be a record that will help.
To everyone, please stay safe….and stay at home. With much love.